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I don’t know if it is a good thing to be so emotional in life. Looking back, today is another day where I need to battle with my emotions again. Had informed my Tow Kay Neo about my intention to leave, somehow after doing that, the rest of the day was pretty messed up with emotions running amok in me. Especially when having tea with my senior exec after a school visit and talking about things in the office. Somehow, a part of me still felt pretty much wanting to continue to contribute to the office, while another part of me was telling me to move on.

Actually had always been battling with my emotions during moments where decisions has to be made. Since my part-time days, I had also on numerous occassions run to stumbling blocks where one side of me want to go, while another side of me want to stay. Even the latest experience where I was supposed to be transfer back from school to office, also had to struggle between comfortable environment vs career advancement.

Looking back, I know that because of my strong sense of emotions, I am able to gain the support and trust from people, especially so with my group of library assistants, but somehow when it comes to decision making, the strong sense of emotions will usually just make the whole process more complicated.

So is it a good thing or not, I really don’t know… I guess I am also confused! Just like my Tow Kay Neo…