Scouty’s Weblog

Realised that I hasn’t been blogging as frequent. So decide to pen down some thoughts today, perhaps after penning down the thoughts I won’t feel so emo.

Well.. for the past few weeks, things have been pretty much of a challenge. Lots of things happened within this short 1 month. Happy stuffs, unhappy stuffs, complicated stuffs and stressful stuffs.

Happy stuffs?? Well, firstly had attended the baby’s 1st month of my good friend S. She had given birth to a cute and pretty daughter. So was down at her place last week to share the happy moments with S and A. Another happy stuff, finally had gotten my diploma cert from TP at the graduation ceremony. I guess it should be a joyous moment for the class of us in the part-time Diploma course. As our 3 years of hard work had paid off. So as of 19 May, I am officially a TP Diploma Graduate.

Unhappy stuffs?? Haa… this perhaps has been the something that has affected me even till now. Had thought that I will be able to manage my emotions and played the game accordingly. But well… letting my emotions run lose, I end up getting pretty much emotionally attached to this person. Should not go into much details about her, but all I can said is that the days with her was surely memorable. It brings back the feeling of dating life and during the time together, it does put me in great pride and joy to be seen walking around with such a babe. Haa.. the ego booster at work I guess… Didn’t know I still have such an ego residing in my life. ‘A cut above the rest’ would be the best phrase to describe my thoughts and feeling towards her. Anyway.. I guess I should have been prepared for this, since thats how the game works. Only consolation, a photo taken during an event at the club for memories sake.

Complicated stuffs?? Another issue that almost got me into a mess that I believe will come and haunt me and kick me in the ass. Again should not go into details, but its just another matter of the heart issues that I believe is dangerous and comes with complicated consquence. Though the tempation of going into it was pretty strong at one stage, but well… lucky the good old senses kicked in and was able to make a clear decision before things get real messed up.

Stressful stuffs?? Haa.. Perhaps this has yet to be develop into something stressful. Since the approach that each of us are taking is more on the defence mode. Knowing her character, I don’t think she will want to rock the boat and risk war over the matter which is considered to be history now. A wrong move at my end to be seen stepping into other people’s borders and in a certain way, fighting someone else’s war. As the famous saying goes, “Smart is ok, don’t act smart!”

Hmm.. that pretty much sums up the going on in May… Am still trying to get pass the unhappy issues and move on.. But memories of that person seems to be floating by once in a while. Haa.. even the few happy moments can’t seem to over-ride it.. What an impact that person has created in my life… Perhaps I should dedicate a post for her… Since its been a while someone had came by and swept me of my feet.