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港口

可能可以靠岸的港口，可是又有些的疑惑。

想尝试去靠岸的港口，可是又好像靠不了。

有时后还真的不知如何是好。

要找到一个能靠岸的港口还真不容易呀。

Breathing

Had finally gotten back my sleep study report done at NUH in Dec. The result was just as what I had expected, no improvement from the previous test done many years back. The only difference now is I can have a better understanding of the whole condition, since I am more aware of things and thus able to ask more questions to clear any doubts.

Basically, what the test shown was on an average of 1 hour, there were 57 times I wasn’t breathing in my sleep. With the longest episode of non-breathing clocked at 1 min plus (Haa… Diver capability??). While the whole condition itself isn’t life threatening, since there are no cases of people dying in their sleep due to Obstructive Sleep Apnea. But such condition does increase the risks of heart attacks, high blood pressure and strokes (somehow I am still puzzle how is there a linked between the conditions).

Anyway, there aren’t much options left. Since the doctor aren’t recommending operation, as according to her, my previous operation was quite extensive and thus any operation now will mean it has to be done at a deeper level.

One to insert something into the throat to prevent the tongue from falling back when I sleep, or another one where an instrument will be inserted inside the airway to allow the passage of air.

The doctor was more keen to have me put on a mask every night, where air will be pump in to assist my breathing and thus clearing the airway.

Still thinking about the options, though personally I aren’t that keen with the idea of having to put a mask every night. In fact, am thinking of seeing if TCM has any help in this. Hee.. maybe acupuncture or something.

Meanwhile, shall just live with it and continue to be amazed with my breathing or lack of breathing every night.

Run Down of Happenings

Been almost a month since I started school, so far am enjoying the process of it. Though the assignments and the strict date-line can be a challenge. Still adapting to the environment and haven’t really taken the step to make friends and mingle around. Perhaps that should be one of the must do thing, to make some friends, so that lesson time won’t be so boring.

Work has been good, things are going on well and that is helping me in my part-time studies. Furthermore, my group of library kids had been a great help too and because this is the 3rd year we are together, so the bond between us is closer and many times I am so glad to have them around, whether its to get their help to do stuffs or to hear their conversation or bickering.

Had been able to balance my time better. Juggling it with work, studies, association and personal time (reading and drama chasing). In fact, now that I am studying, I treasure my night-time even more. Especially those nights where I do not have lessons, cos that means I have the whole night to do my own stuffs or to get some rest.

Been caught up with reading recently, started with reading this book from Cecelia Ahern, The Gift and now reading another of her book, When Rainbows End. Both are very interesting and each book has its unique way of presenting the story.

Ohh… As I was reading this post, I realised the post are made up of short sentences. Haa.. Must be the overdoes of typing my assignment past few days. So pardon me for the sentence structure.

Attachment

Was sharing with my Secondary School friends during our little gathering about my decision to stay put at my current work-place despite having an opportunity to move to a possibly better prospect job

My friend said something that strike me a bit. She said, “Haa.. you had formed attachment with your students lah.” It didn’t really occurred to me, but I think she had hit the nail on the issue. Looking back, indeed it was the attachment with the students that had affected my decision.

A similar remark was also made by another friend. She too said the same thing, about me being someone with strong attachment feelings, based on her observation.

Well… I am not sure if it’s something I shall be proud of eh. Though I have to admit they were right in making that remark. I tend to form attachment to things rather easily.

Good thing or bad thing… I am not sure.